Posted by Racer on August 25, 2004, at 12:51:47
In reply to Re: Trapped inside head feeling, posted by linkadge on August 25, 2004, at 8:08:41
> But see thats the thing. I have absolutely no problem with my body. We may be thinking something a little different here.
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> The problem I am having is kind of a strange sensation. When I feel well I feel like I *am* my body, but then this change happens and I feel just like I am at the controlls of a giant video game. It is this strange panicky feeling of not being fully present. Like half my brain is turned on or something.
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> LinkadgeBelieve it or not, that really and truly *does* sound pretty much exactly like what I was talking about. (Warning: total insomnia, that speedy thing happenin', anxious, agitated, etc -- communication is not likely to be my strong suit today? Just a head's up, since I still can't convince myself not to try to explain...)
I think, for me at least, that when I was 'well', I was able to inhabit my body better, but when the depression cycle would start, that would trigger -- whaddaya wanna call it? Let's make it snappy, eh? Howzabout VideoGameControlPanel Disorder, on accounta I liked that description a lot? Anyway, the cycle would trigger this sort of internal withdrawal that I experienced and think is at least very close blood kin to what you're describing. Yes, it's a feeling of being de-personalized, but I'm very suspicious of diagnoses -- I'd rather hear what to do to help than just give it a name, you know? If I don't know it's a cobra, it's venom can still kill me, right?
Linkadge, I know it probably doesn't sound likely to you, but whether or not we're talking about the same sort of thing at all, I truly believe that some sort of physical activity that might help anchor you in your body more probably isn't going to hurt. There are yoga shows on all the Public TV stations down here -- trying it for a week or two would be free, right?
Whatever happens, I wish you the best.
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