Posted by SDA on November 25, 2004, at 3:51:20
In reply to Re: seeking insight with brain fog/depression/sleep..., posted by bethola291 on November 24, 2004, at 20:23:06
> iam new to world of sobrity. its something i fought with for about a yr until i could get it right( i mean im still fighting but)i have been clean for about a yr. part of me says its my own aftereffects that cause my issues but im not so sure.
> and although i have never been on these "mind alterning" meds as u call them.. streets drugs have the same effect. they alter my reality in ways that, at least, felt benificial.
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> im sry ull never get back what u have lost.. and 1 thing that keeps me moving everyday.. not jst from the little demons in me i deal with, but the big demons outside too, is the fact i can keep my head up regardless of anything. ill get up tomorow and be happy that iam here,on this 1 and only ride- and i will continue to make hte best of it and smile because iam here..
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> easier said than done i know. but i have accepted to fight my battle by being here today.
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> i was excited to post and jst the fact that i stumbled upon this site makes me feel not alone, and even if we never find a cure to our personal aligments- it makes me feel better.
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> RENE DESCARTES said it best- i think therefor iam.
> btw- ben folds ROCKS!!Well, I guess the harm you did with the drugs kind of depends on which ones you did. Marijuana probably won't do catastrophic damage to you, but things like ecstacy and speed in very high amounts certainly can. Plus, I think you should just give it more time before you pass any verdicts on it.
I did some more thinking today. I think that I'm going to try to remain logical when I start thinking about calling it quits on life. The saddest development I could imagine for myself at this juncture is ending my life in an act of despiration and rage, even though there still might have been something that I could have done to make things right. To be honest, I don't think I've done all there is to be done yet.
Sorry if I was a bit of a downer with my last post, but that's just where I was at the moment. And yes, Ben Folds does rock. He did a show at my school a couple years ago.
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