Posted by babak on December 16, 2004, at 8:54:29
In reply to To babak, posted by ed_uk on December 16, 2004, at 7:13:57
Thanks for your response. My depression and it response to medication seems to get worse with age.
I was first on Prozac for five years which kept me functioning but towards the end it caused head-aches and temper tantrums. Then I switched to Venelafaxine which helped with depression and my temper but caused a lot of body tension, insomnia, and partial loss of libido as well as head aches. But for some reason I stayed on it for six years.
I tried to change to Roboxetine but that gave me terrible kidney pains and I had to discontinue after three days.
Then I tried adding Mirtazapine which for six glorious weeks lifted the depression completely and all its symptoms for the first time in my life. But it faded away after six weeks.
That was when I had ETC and that was the worst experience in my life. After the treatment I didn’t even remember my way back home. Apparently after four sessions they (British NHS) couldn’t induce a seizure. So without telling be they injected me with caffeine before the treatment. That gave me such a palpitation that for eight hours after the treatment I couldn’t stand up and they wouldn’t even give me something to calm me down. I thought I was having a heart attack. The next ECG showed that my heart rhythm had changed.
After that the doctors in the local NHS hospital basically, gave up on me and kept passing me around and cancelling my appointments. This was until I demanded to see a specialist in Lodon. The sent me Moudsley hospital in London who prescribed Paroxetine. It really helped with the anxiety part but left me empty and without any enthusiasm. My sex derive fell down even further until I became completely impotent around 18 months ago.
Then I went to a private psychiatrist in London who prescribed several drugs like Wellbutrin until he hit on Olanzapine on top of Paroxetine. Again, this time for almost three months the depression was lifted but then I returned to the same old feeling of none-responsiveness. I can’t feel anything with any passion; it seems as if my soul has been taken away. I tried to replace Olanzapine with Seroquel but then the depression came back and I kept having crying spells and became over sensitive. I felt suicidal, that was when I took a fistful of pills.
So, now I am back on Olazapine which is better but I still have crying spells, have no concentration and just can’t put my heart into anything. Even my affection towards my daughter is governed by my conscience rather than feelings and as far a sex goes; nothing.
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