Posted by 4WD on May 19, 2005, at 16:29:36
In reply to Why are evenings worse?, posted by Maxime on May 19, 2005, at 15:30:09
> Hello.
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> I find that my depression takes over in the evening. I try to keep myself distracted by reading or writing, but still I feel a wave of sadness come over me. If I call a friend, I still feel very alone.
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> Is there a biochemical reason for this? Would it have anything to do with cortisone levels?
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> Sometimes I work on CBT exercises from the Feel Good Handbook to see if it will help, but so far it hasn't.
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> It really is a significant drop in my mood. When I can cry .... I do. Right now I can't cry. I don't feel any anxiety or anything just EXTREME sadness.
> This has always been the case for me. It's like my anti-depressant just stops working.
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> Anyone have any input? Sometimes I don't feel very safe at night and I end up having to call a hotline. A few nights ago I went to the hospital, only to be sent home and feeling even worse.
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> Help?
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> Maxime
>Maxime,
I think it must be biochemical. It is the exact opposite for me. I wake up feeling bad, am very anxious in the mornings and most of the day (unless I take Klonopin). I'm also tired and unmotivated and anhedonic during the day.
AT night, however, maybe at about 8 or sometimes not til 11, I begin to feel good. No depression, no anxiety, no tiredness. I could enjoy going to the gym and working out. But of course, it's bedtime.
I don't get it. How can it just change like that during the day or night?
You must dread when it begins to get dark. Do you think it would help to get one of those lights like for SAD? Have you asked your doctor about this? He/she probably scratched his/her head and said "hmmm, I don't know."
Have you had your cortisol levels checked? Mine is extremely high. Maybe yours drops at night?
Marsha
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