Posted by denise1966 on September 8, 2005, at 7:09:20
In reply to Mirtazapine with Effexor/Venlafaxine-Denise, posted by Tom Twilight on September 7, 2005, at 15:45:02
Hi Tom,
First time I ever tried Mirtazapine was at 15mg and I felt like a total zombie on it, also got panic attacks. I remember forcing myself to go for a drink with a work colleague and he was talking to me and I couldn't even force myself to show an interest in what he was saying. It was horrendous. He then took delight in showing me his new car and all I could think of to say was I didn't like the colour, it was just something to say. But he brought it up not long ago, the fact that I didn't like the colour of his car! If only he new how dreadful I was feeling that day. God how I wish I could get excited about anything.
Not long ago my psychiatrist added 15mg to my 40mg of Seroxat, although it wasn't as bad as the first time I tried it, I just felt odd on it.
Maybe, I should give it another try only at a higher dose, what do you think?
My current plan is to go back on Seroxat 60mg but it had stopped working on me before so not sure what to add if it fails to work again. Maybe I could add effexor and Remeron and if this works then come off the Seroxat, what do you think or is it not safe to add these drugs together at too high doses? To be honest I don't particularly care if I die anyway, sometimes I think if they're not going to work then hopefully they'll just kill me instead. I'm really sick of the worry of this, what drug to take next and what to do next if that doesn't work. It's like my whole life is tied up in planning what drug to take next. Six years ago I was relatively happy, just enjoyed going to work, planning on buying a new flat, enjoyed holidays etc, what the hell happened! I seriously wish I'd had just died before this depression descended on me again, at least I wouldn't have been any the wiser.
Zyprexa is favourite drug at the moment but I only take it when I'm completely at my wits end.
Sorry, if this note got a bit carried away, you were only talking about Remeron and Mirtazapine :-)
Denise
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