Posted by B2chica on September 19, 2005, at 12:21:34
In reply to Re: Scott/SLS? ****TRIGGER***** » B2chica, posted by SLS on September 15, 2005, at 16:34:26
thanks for the responses SLS.
-yes i think i have heard of the medication breakthrough, but when stress relieves, i could go back down dosage right?
-yes the zyprexa was originally given (2 years ago) for 'hypomanic episodes'.
i understand that schizotypal PD is axis 2, but my doc has casually brought up schizophrenia a couple times, i never flat out asked him, and really don't want to know at this point but i mentioned it cuz my 'episodes' are similar to that (at least thats what the nurses told me and that's why the pdoc in the hospital put me on zyprexa. My ocd goes haywire and i have to repeat words over and over until it's enough and lands on an even number. i have a string of sentences going on in my head and their overlapping eachother and that makes it very hard to talk, it gets so loud in there. in the hospital i started getting caught up in a formula that i created and started writing everything in binary code, it hurt to hear others talk cuz it interrupted my focus on getting all the sounds, words, string of sentences out of my head. i have this song that helps me when i'm at my worst. it's spinning plates by radiohead. if you've ever heard that song, That's what it sounds like in my head...really listen to all the different harmonics going on, there's so much that it's like it keeps those hundreds of secctions of my brain busy so that i can somewhat comprehend what is going on around me. The anxiety is So high also....this can last up to about two or so hours at the most (but typically hour/hourand half at it's highest peak, then i crash and i mean physically i collapse and can't move for about two-three hours i'm so drained.they used to have me in BPD cuz of my cutting, but i think my t took that away and prominantly put me as mainly PTSD.
>>Depression is a liar. Don't make life and death decisions based upon the warped messages it sends you.REALLY like this saying. i'll need to remember this.
thanks for the help scott.
b2c.
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