Posted by bigcat on November 21, 2005, at 21:44:58
In reply to Re: Lexapro: 10mg vs 20mg. Any more beneficial?????? » bigcat, posted by ed_uk on November 21, 2005, at 16:30:24
You keep churning out hope for me, Ed. I was wondering what a "hard-hitting" TCA might be, and Tofranil is one we never explored fully. I'm so impressionable in regards to this board,which is sometimes a good, and sometimes a bad thing. I read a couple posts from long-term med veterans who never found any long-lasting, consistent relief, and I saw myself forty years from now, having only caught peeks and glances of my true self in remission here and there, waiting to die and be released, never having even started a life, just watching all the action go down from the sidelines. I guess I have to accept that this train I've been waiting for may, and may not ever come.
I've been assaulting myself with the idea that I'm "choosing" my destiny, or that I'm addicted to my suffering (have you ever seen "What The Bleep Do We Know?" Watch it if you haven't- VERY interesting). Anyway, hearing you give the Anafrinil a good review gives me a little more hope that I have viable options to try in the event that my current or next med don't work. There is no doubt in my mind that the OCD was a precursor for the depression, so maybe this is a good angle to take. Only a trial will tell.
What I need now is discipline. Patience is impossible and cannot be cultivated at present. But right now what I truly need is the discipline (and balls) to stick with a med even if it makes me much more depressed or anxious at first. There's a storm before the calm maybe.
Hope All Is Well,
-matt-p.s.- I'm still waiting to hear what music YOU like.
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