Posted by Storm Rider on April 13, 2006, at 8:31:16
In reply to Re: Bye Bye, Topamax, posted by SandyWeb on April 12, 2006, at 22:46:47
> Kat and Nettie,
>
> No need to worry,
>
> I just survived a battle a couple weeks ago that should have been the end of me.....and it was the HARDEST thing to live through.....BUT I MADE IT....and I'm still here. You know how too many bad things happen too close together and you just can't deal anymore. Well, I did. I really don't know how.....BUT I DID.
>
> So I'm here. This isn't a battle this time. This is just going to be the flu. I know there's an end in sight to it. The meds will run their course, I'll be freaking because I'm out of anti-anxiety meds, BUT I'm just going to sleep my way through it. I already fought my battle a couple of weeks ago......I'm not doing that again. I'll stay in my jamies for 2 weeks if need be. I'll soak in the tub. I'll let my daughter think she has the laziest mum on the planet. If my mind is going to be musch, I might as well sleep through as much of it as I can. Hey, I'm just a welfare-mummy. Got nothing to do anyways.
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> But I think the Remeron is going to be TOUGH! I'll drop from 45 to 15 tomorrow night, and if I feel the slightest twinge of those dang overwhelming hunger pangs, it's cold-turkey for that as well, just like that. Might as well two at once, huh? Hopefully my daughter will just think I have the flu. Then she goes back to her gandparents on the 17th, and once again, it's just the cats and myself since my 17-year old son moved out last month to live with his girlfriend. I was stuck in the dang apartment from March 20th to April 4th because I didn't have any Klonopin and no safe person (my son) to get outside with. Glad I had food in the cupboards. Stupid brain! Just, let's get this thing started....and then I can feel relatively normal again!
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> And don't worry......no roller coaster ride. I'm not taking anyone for a ride this time. So don't anybody get all panicky. It's not 2 years ago. I'm not suicidal. I just thought the paperwork would be processed by now. Instead, I owe my sister a chunk of money for the prescriptions she paid for me....thinking she would be reimbursed.
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> Good night.
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> Sandy
>and Sandy stay with us on this message board or whaever it is called...
we care and we will try to help...
if caring and talking and reaching out is much help...
it is all we can offer...
meanwhile I am trying to find answers for you
kat
poster:Storm Rider
thread:5053
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