Posted by snapper on July 5, 2006, at 2:26:52
In reply to Re: Rumination-snapper, posted by Racer on July 4, 2006, at 22:17:12
Hey all, thanks for all of your responces , Ideas and helpful suggestion. They are kind and sincere.I know that. As far as getting into a different line of work, that part is basically impossible for many factors. Plus my brain just could not keep up with the frenetic pace of what I had and did in the eighties and early to mid nineties.... I am at this point being forced to make the best of it by hoping HUD will hopefully call me and say ...YES to my need. I am fortunate that I already have a very nice place in which to live with my sister...but all of my SSI goes to my half of the rent. Utilities are extra, of course.... My social anxiety plays a very significant part in what I can do or not do, and of course there is the issue of trying to work and feel worth while for a dollar to SSI basis and try to reintergrate in to a dollar worth while per amount of stress put out situation ( hope that makes sense) My illness has changed me in so many ways. I do realize that there are a lot of others out there who have things worse, maybe much,much worse and some who seem to have it just right... I am just looking to be stable in meds, money, life, social, love......yada ,yada, yada, I really feel it is out there and attainable. I think I have had it before even if I was in an up to my neck stress situation. I atleast had the monetary means to help offset some of the not so obvious wants, needs, and desires.....Now I continue to be all to stressed about things that 5 to 7 years ago were major and are now becoming to frution and going to hopfulley be behind me. I am now rambling--sorry. I do ruminate about how life used to be.... my triggers are everywhere. They say God truly does answer prayers. I need a lot of answers. I wish it were possible to be able to even be possible an a Med or at least a small combo of meds that would help the Major core features of Deprssion/Anxiety and BI-POLAR symtomologies---sadly----death is always lurking around hidden corners. Any and all positive and or negative ideas and or comments are surely welcome!
Thanks for listening - and reading
Bless you all
Snapper
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