Posted by CA 2 NJ on November 5, 2006, at 11:40:05
Hello everyone. I hope you all are well and enjoying your weekend.
I am really desperate and in need of some advice from those who have "been there" with the whole anxiety/depression thing. I respect Doctors and all but I think in order to truly understand what one is going through is to also have the same or similar experiences.
I am currently taking 100mg of Zoloft, 75 mg of Wellbutrin (Immediate release), 75mg of Lamictal, 3 to 3.5mg of Xanax and 3mg of Lunesta each day.
I recently tapered down from 150mg of Zoloft (going down 25mg/week) and the Wellbutrin was added at the same time. This all started 1 1/2 weeks ago.
The problem is that I have been depressed a lot of the time (or sometimes apathetic), am irritable and impatient, sometimes feel like I'm going nuts and out of control (like now), feel like I could cry at any given moment, feel like I could just run around screaming while pulling out my hair (funny-sounding scenario but true), feel either tired or anxious (it varies), can't concentrate and have racing and intrusive thoughts, and am ALWAYS wanting to eat (especially carbs and sweets). Even if I'm not at all hungry.
I realize that lessening my dose of the SSRI may be causing the cravings/hunger but I thought the Wellbutrin may help counteract that. I probably need more of the Wellbutrin as I am taking the smallest available dose.
I should mention that I have been diagnosed with Bipolar I, Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder w/o Agoraphobia, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, and a few other things.
All of the meds (except for the Xanax and Lunesta) seem to be activating to me. I can't take more than 75mg of Lamictal without feeling as though I'm jumping out of my skin. And at 150mg of Zoloft I always wanted to cut myself when I saw a knife and truly felt like I was crazy. I also then started gaining weight like crazy. And I am not yet sure if upping my Wellbutrin would be of help.
I have had 1 good day in the past week. And that was the day after I stepped my Zoloft down from 125mg to 100mg. Maybe I should just stay at 125mg?
Obviously I am very confused and am in need of help. I do have an appointment with my Psychiatrist on Wed., 11/8 but I don't know what to do until then.
The last time I saw my Psychiatrist she mentioned something about Lexapro. I have tried it in the past but I remember being really tired on it. At this point that sounds comforting.
I hope this all makes sense as my mind is racing and I feel on the verge of a panic attack or something. And I apologize for it being so lengthy.
Please is anyone has any ideas, suggestions, experiences, ANYTHING they would be willing to share, I would be so extremely grateful. I am really in a bad situation and am feeling out of control. And the last time I felt this way, the Emergency Room was of no help.
Thank you all so very much if you're still here reading. LOL Please take good care and God Bless!
Hugs,
Michelle
poster:CA 2 NJ
thread:700576
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