Posted by jealibeanz on November 15, 2006, at 17:03:55
In reply to and talked..., posted by jealibeanz on November 15, 2006, at 17:02:05
I basically explained that I did well through high school w/95 avg, due to structure, easy cookie-cutter course work, and good testing ability and sheer intelligence. I never ever read anything, just was able to do it w/o a normal amount of work (although the frustration and guilt associated with knowing that you feel like you're "cheating" b/c you rarely read/study, and when you do, it's minimally effective, results in a great deal of work/chaos... just not the same type as other students.)
I fell apart in college b/c this method no longer work. I had to retake several courses, and majorly struggled. This may have surprised her b/c they would not have admitted a person with obvious academic difficulties, but it's not terribly obvious b/c I retook the failed/dropped courses and ended up with an acceptable GPA. Apparently they didn't scour my transcript for such oddities (taking chem 3x, calc 3x, physics x2, etc).
I still never studied and had difficulties reading. The only success I had when retaking courses was when I chose to ignore the prof, and completely teach myself. However, I usually only took one difficult course at a time, so was able to devote all time to it, and not the other classes. So, I do have the ability to learn, especially with self education, which is what I need to catch up right now, but it’s only possible when I have the control of focus.
I also partially hoped/blamed my problems on the fact that I was an athlete and was tired, and would be fixed this year when I stopped. but now know this is not the case. I told her I wouldn’t have entered the program if I thought I couldn’t do well, but never expected such problems. I’d never been in that environment. I knew I was intelligent, so why not?
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