Posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on January 24, 2007, at 7:46:00
In reply to Re: Hey Abilify Users.... (not ME), posted by mindevolution on January 24, 2007, at 1:40:04
> > Thank you all for your kind attention to my thread. For various reasons I am now taking geodon, rather than abilify.
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> ummmm, it may be a silly question, but what's a nice girl like you doing on antipsychotics?
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>Aww that's a sweet thing to ask?!?
Maybe I'm a nice girl to others, but often I have a problem that I'm not nice to myself. I think that this class of drugs serves two functions for me. First- mood stabilization. Before I was on anti-psychotics, the the smallest fluctuation in my plans for the day had the potential to make me feel like my emotions were out of my control. If something unexpected and stressful happened, my reaction to it would be immediate and way overblown. (call it "trigger" or whatever. Second, I was struggling with suicidal ideation and other thoughts of mayhem and murder. No matter how sensible I was, telling myself that the can opener is my FRIEND, etc, I couldn't help but see an opportunity for suicide and dismemberment in the majority of everyday scenes. Strife would also cause me to have a welling up of flashbacks from my own traumatic childhood, and these flashbacks were vivid enough to send me into dissociation and depersonalization. Not much fun. The result of these intrusive thoughts was that I had problems leaving home, and getting my work done (which involves collaboration, more than not).
That's why. Seroquel was a very good drug for me (once I became immune to the daytime sedation). But now I'm not happy with the weight gain and motor system twitchies and abnormalties (and cravings for marzipan and chocolate)
-Ll
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