Posted by halcyondaze on February 13, 2007, at 17:18:19
High dose Parnate (120 mg/day) has cured me of my Body Dysmorphic Disorder. No longer do I think I am the ugliest person in the world. No longer do I put make-up on every day even when I know I'm not leaving the house, because I can't stand to look at myself without make-up. No longer do I experience anxiety about going outside and having people see how "ugly" I am. No longer do people stare at me on the street and talk about how ugly I am.
My life has truly been changed. I never thought it was possible. It's like my reality has been turned upside down.
Plus, I am happy for the first time in perhaps my entire life. Not just "stable" or "asymptomatic" but HAPPY. Parnate has given me a new life.
At lower doses, it definitely worked in that I wasn't depressed and I was stable but it didn't take away my BDD and it didn't make me feel actually HAPPY, just non-depressed. When my doctor and I decided to try upping the dose to see if I would experience further symptom reduction and then reducing it back to 80 or 100 mg (what I had been taking) if there wasn't any kind of benefit, I was skeptical. I'm so glad I decided to increase it.
I have been given my life back. Or rather, I have been given a life for the first time since I have never known what it is like to finally be free.
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