Posted by nolegirl23 on February 28, 2007, at 20:45:53
In reply to Am I The Only Messed Up Person Here Hiding In the, posted by Phillipa on February 27, 2007, at 12:09:59
> Am I the only messed up person on babble I knew I was the worst off hiding in the house and it's nice out . And I can't do a thing but sit here. I'm a sick person is it lymes, thryoid, my mind or something else? I've seen so many specialists. Is there nothing else to to? Love Phillipa the wierdest person on babble and the sickest I think.
No my dearest Pilippa, you are not the only messed up person on babble.
This weekend, I ventured out to the neared fabric store and purchased the thickest, blackest fabrick that I could find. I then nailed said fabrick all around my window paine so that there would be absolutely NO light in my room.I sliced "F*CK YOU" into my arm the other day...
I starved myself for two weeks only to succomb to an all day ($70.00) binge/purge session..Today I poured a bottle of wine into a grape juice bottle and got drunk as hell at work, than proceeded to DRIVE HOME.
I cannot figure out why I am doing these things to myself when I want so badly to live a normal life.
It's not as if these things just 'happen;' I make a conscious decision to drink, to starve, to binge, to purge, to carve things into my arm, to call in sick to work simply because I can't get my lame *ss out of bed...........
Not to turn this into a pity party for me, I want to be there for you! The only way I know how to relate to people is to empathize with them, and you sound a lot like me. You sound as if you look around, and all you see are 'normal' people.
I know how you feel, and I wish I could be there for you.
I also wish I had that magic answer that would fix us all.Hang in there Phillipa, we all value and love your input on this site!!
Love,
~ Shanon ~
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