Posted by Phillipa on April 21, 2007, at 10:52:21
I don't know what is wrong with me. I think I know and then when the docs and others verify it I doubt myself. Like when I go to bed I have plans in my head good plans. I sleep late and wake-up paranoid and wondering how I ever thought I could do that even a simple thing like the Mall with Greg. I am terrified. I did start the luvox and now at 50mg a starting dose and going to the old pdoc am afraid I must be psychotic as everything I think is ridiculous and my energy from the worry I'm tired in a few hours. And the day is half gone and not even hair washed. I look forward to night. And think tomorrow will be different and it never is. I can't go to a hospital as the last time they put me in geriatrics and into withdrawal. So even though the PHD felt I should go with my gut on meds and docs I have no faith in myself. Does this mean I have crossed over the edge? I'm not young as you all know. I just want to hide. And it's okay to criticize me and please don't block anyone that may something with potential to hurt me as maybe I need that now. I just have to get better in a time frame. My husband needs me better now and in 2008 I will no longer be able to work and the pressure for money is eating away at me. I thought the luvox would solve my problems. It's letting me sleep but now this strange feeling easch morning. So help please. Love Phillipa
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