Posted by deniseuk190466 on May 30, 2007, at 13:16:06
In reply to Re: To Linkadge » deniseuk190466, posted by Racer on May 28, 2007, at 14:49:07
Hi Racer,
Thanks but I really can't think of any dramatic life changes which may have expected my response this time round. In fact from the outset things were better than they had ever been before.
My weight is the same, I don't have any thyroid issues. I haven't had any children, I hadn't divorced, I hadn't lost anyone close to me so it just doesn't make any sense.
The only thing is that years ago when my depression first started (at 17) I was convinced I had health problems, never associated it with depression and I pursued that line of thinking. I went to the doctors searching for an answer and nothing. I wasn't suicidal then just scared that I was going to die. Then I finally just accepted the way I felt and sort of got on with it. Then at 24 when I seemed to get worse and the doctor prescribed this pill (prothiaden) and I took it, I felt like somebody had truly unlocked the door to my prison and I was finally free, it worked so well. I had the answer and I always thought it would be the answer if I ever got depressed but not so. When I finally came off antidepressants its strange but I never felt as bad as I had done before going on them.
This time round it hasn't been so easy and I'm no longer scared of dying but more scared of carrying on living like this and not knowing why I feel the way I do.
The only thing I can think is that depression gets worse and more severe the older you get. It's progressive, it must be.
Anyway, thanks for asking.
Denise
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