Posted by your#1fan on November 13, 2007, at 0:00:58
In reply to PLEASE KEEP POSTING TO LET US KNOW U ARE OK » your#1fan, posted by UgottaHaveHope on November 12, 2007, at 18:20:22
Well i tell you today was not good at all. I just yell "God I hate this night! hahahaha!" "Its always me!"
My home life is unstable. Every minute im eaither saying "danmit!" "oh god" well maybe not all the time, but thats in my vocabulary pretty down. Im unstable, and you know i really didnt expect you to post the post you posted, i just thought this post was going to go.....................whoo no response. Then again i would of said "Danmit" ROFL!No i have real problems as i disclosed in the post before, i have problems with relationships, how i communicate to people, people alot of times think im "nuerotic" and need some help. One of friends one time told me to go smoke some pot....to shut up; but they where not for real these are people that just fed up. (I took a Xanax intead), by the it didnt work either....mmm mm mmm
Seriously if you asked about my me.... "oh jesus, i love him sometimes but sometimes he will get off the charts" that what i over heard a person say one time about me.
Whats next? please say desert... not disaster please!! ROFL! I have enough, lose my keys, say the wrong thing thing at wrong time. I have caused many disasters (not terroristism of course not so dont think that!) like disasters with myself, like call people manic and make a fool out of my self, i mean im talking so fast and its just, well one good thing.......i have caused people to pay attention and talk about (that part is good) im center, the bad is "whats with him?"
But i have came to a conclusion today, someone told me that i bring life to people who are miserable with comments that are hilarious. I thought they hated me, but i just kept up my guard.
But jesus my doctor is scared of me, "what is it", one time i asked my doctor "pleeease tell me if im crazy??"
I just live this life because god knew what i was suppost to do.....but right now i dont know where i am right now. I dont know what to do. But thank you for your response.
I have to deal with reality, but no more bad thoughts....
both of your posts helped me.
really Xyour#1fan
thanksa saint fan
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