Posted by Nardilstarted2007 on November 19, 2007, at 6:13:32
Hi!(bit of a long post sorry) I have been so pleased to read all your posts and its time for me to contribute and get help from you guys. I'm sure I'll be with you all for a long time. I'm 22 and a 3rd year college student Taking Conservation Enforcement Degree and I live in Canada, I just joined last week. I started Nardil Oct 10th 2007, 5 weeks ago. I have severe SAD and Panic Disorder since I was probably very young (under 10 for SAD), it leads to depression if I don’t do anything about it.
I have tried Paxil(first med I tried in early 1994), Lexapro, Clexa, wellbutrin (on its own and as a combo), Effexor, Zoloft, Ativan, and zanax (Benzo's alone and in conjunction with the AD's.Paxil worked Great for 4 months with CBT, then I weaned down to 10mgs in hopes of getting my sex life back so I could take it a step further with some girls I knew. We would kiss, spoon, and get all into it, but when it came to where I would be expected to "finish" I would have to stop and come up with an excuse. Paxil stopped working and never worked again. Then I tried Celexa, which almost worked but didn't, Lexapro made me sleep 20 hrs a day and didn’t work, Zoloft did nothing, Wellbutrin gave me awesome sexual functioning and super interest in everything but made My anxiety and Panic the worst of all time, Effexor did nothing unless I drank which made me a hypomanic and crazy which was good at parties or the bars only! But never worked otherwise. The Benzo’s are ok but don’t help with my SAD, they just calm me down.
I tried going on paxil again this summer but it didn’t work unless I was drinking, for some reason it totally worked when I was drunk. So I became a drunk for a whole summer and lost a job. When these meds don’t work I get agoraphobia and paranoia so bad I run away or go somewhere and just drink in combination with benzo's to stop the inferno of anxiety. That’s all I Could Do Or die (I’m not suicidal and never was) I turned to alcohol and zanax and abused them every day to free my mind that was being crushed to the point of loosing sanity completely (I would cry and walk around like a mad man looking up asking WHYYYY! WHY MEE). I quit Paxil/ssris for good at the end of august 2007. I was fine for 2 weeks after because of an ssri discontinuation induced hypomania, WHOO HOOO, it was great, Like Being On a Great antidepressant with no anxiety and felt like ACE most of the time. That last 2 weeks then I dropped into my severe state of SAD, PD, and then finally depression. This was the worst of all time and just a little over a month ago. I drove home for thanks giving Oct 8 2007 (that’s when it is in Canada and had the worst time ever). I didn’t attend dinner or see my family I was too paranoid and having panic attacks) so I just left back to school without telling any one Oct 10th and stopped 2 hrs away and went into a walk in clinic and said I needed a refill of Nardil because I was going to Alberta and my insurance only covers meds in BC. So he said OK here's a script for 170nardil. OK, thanks, I said, and got into my vehicle and popped one in my mouth immediately and began my trip back to Alberta (10 hour drive) I decided to do 60mgs my first day starting exactly then ( I was still feeling so horrible as I drove for the journey with tears coming out of my eyes). When I got to Alberta I started my second day. 75mg/day exactly recommended for my weight. I said f*ck titrating I need it to kick in as SOON as possible or I’m going to fail school and run away. I wasn't going to waste time titrating for 80% maoi inhibition I wanted it by day seven so I could start waiting the 1- 8 weeks starting with full maoi inhibition. I DO NOT THINK ANYONE SHOULD EVER GO UP THAT FAST BUT I WAS DESPERATE AND DIDN"T CARE ANYMORE. Anyway I was agoraphobic for another week. Then by week two I knew I hit the target of 80% (anorgasmia, urin retention , insomnia, blurred vision, heavy arms and legs) But I would tolerate this until it worked dammit (I said) to myself. at 3.5 weeks I felt it kicking in!, By week 4 I was doing great with euphoria and the side effects were subsiding AND my social phobia was gone and depression and panic, all gone. It was GREAT with euphoria too. Now I’m at week 5 and I still have anorgasmia and constipation and insomnia. The euphoria from week 3.5 - to the end of week 4 is gone. I have much less anxiety and I’m not depressed. I’m a little unmotivated right now since the euphoria is gone. I hope it starts kicking in a bit better in the next few weeks or I might try 90mgs a day. I have a psychiatrist now so that is good. He didn’t approve of me starting right away at 75mgs but said if the side effects are ok then he’s onboard with me. Although the Nardil is working good I need a bit more to get through this semester so I’m going back to augmenting with zanax .5, 3 x a day till I’m done this semester, and I’ll use a beta blocker when I give my presentations.
That’s my story I hope you know me a bit better now. I’m a research fanatic about this stuff so I hope I can be helpful to you guys.
Thanks for listening; I’m going to have some new posts up here soon with some issues I’m dealing with on Nardil
Yours truly.
NardilStarter2007
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