Posted by yxibow on December 31, 2008, at 5:22:38
In reply to Re: want to try Seroquel XR 400 mg for lamictal psycho » yxibow, posted by SLS on December 30, 2008, at 6:45:43
> Jay,
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> > Anyhow -- that's enough for now, unless someone is interested in my ramblings....
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> Always.
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> I'm sure you realize that I am not trying to pry. I'm just brainstorming. I sometimes get the silly idea that there is something that I might be able to do in order to help.Not at all -- it wasn't that I thought anyone was trying to pry but I realized that I was going on about myself when I was trying to respond to someone else.
> I get the feeling that you rarely "vent". I am fairly particular as to when and to whom I vent. I really don't like doing it because I assume it will be a "downer" and have no other value. I feel somehow less strong for venting.
Well, I know you have had your journey through struggle and triumph, and while I can never create the world before Nov 17-18, 2001 again, as while examining the past and remembering it as a time of your life is a good thing, continuing to live there misses the present and if you live in the future you also never will see the changes, so you live in the Here and Now.
How much I always try to remind and remember that life is a temporary existence to push to its fullest isn't always the easiest when you're caught in something that is so strange and foreign of a disorder, its like I was struck by lightning or something and transported to Mars.Of course, I'm being grandiose there, I know fully well who I am and am not taking medications for their fully intended purpose, not that anyone with a florid psychosis should be looked upon any less, because they certainly wish they didn't have their struggle any more either.
And I do vent in therapy, a lot. Its a safe place to do so and I'm very lucky to have parents who care about me and can give that love through the guidance of two very good professionals. At the same time, of course that's a core issue too, my parents getting older and being the adult child and a 7 year "vacation" that I never wanted.Though I may have issues that I won't delve quite into about being very afraid of "living" -- i.e. going out into life, I miss the times in college when I was for all the problems I had, independent. I'm not the average person who camps on their parent's sofa. Its hard forcing yourself to get beyond your own preconceptions when others have more hope for you than the disastrous things you see.
> I hope you feel somehow better, even if only temporarily, for having shared your story. I appreciate that your words probably really don't work to uncover much but the tip of the iceberg. A whole lot of people here like you and have an enormous respect for the knowledge, understanding, and compassion you display.
You know, Scott, that makes me very happy that I can impart some of what I have learned, and that's exactly why I try and come back to this site even when I may have administrative disagreements because I feel that there is something nice about trying to help people, even if you are operating just on personal experience and everyone is different in their own way.
-- tidings-- Jay
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