Posted by JayBTV2 on January 21, 2009, at 7:32:53
In reply to Re: Abilify saved me » SLS, posted by Neal on January 20, 2009, at 16:25:54
I just came out of the hospital again after two manic episodes. Was in for 3 days in late December - then again for 8 days Jan 10th through 18th.
I had been episode free since 2006. At that point I was put on Lamictal (125mg) and Seroquel (100mg night). Those both seemed to work well until the last few months.
I have a problem with boredom I suppose. I'm on SSI and due to my illness I haven't done much but live w/ my parents (I'm 31 w/ a degree in Psych from McGill University).
Anyway the last few months I kinda slipped back into some drug seeking behavior. Started drinking beer daily at bars to talk to bartenders (at least something social). Then I got back into drinking Cough Syrup (DXM) which is really not too smart. Was actually doing it twice a week prior to bipolar support groups believe it or not (NAMI and MHI).....ugh
So yea I know I need to take responsibility for my mistakes and thus the hardcore episodes I just went through. Burned the back of my hands with cigs. Thought at times I was talking to a god/devil in the sun. Wondered how the brain syncs info as a baby when the speed of light is SO much faster than the speed of sound. Thought about time, magicians, and potential cheaters in the game of life. The ultimate chess player Vs a computer that was built by humans. You are what you eat - but no one eats humans.....on and on and on and on....
Sorry there was a point to this :)
Yea so in this recent visit to the hospital they finally put me on Abilify (15mg morning). It's only been about a week but it's really helped the way I feel. It's my first new medication since 2006 - and I'm really optimistic about it. I was weary of akathesia (which I had bad w/ Wellbutrin of all meds) but so far I haven't had any side-effects aside from some sleep disturbance.
It's also nice that for me it's definitely been pro-libido.
Just wanted to say thanks for those that have posted positive reports in this thread. I'm really hoping this turns out to be the boost I need to get on the right track again. It's only been a week but I've been able to stop all of my vices.....
Thanks for letting me share,
-Jason
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