Posted by uncouth on January 23, 2009, at 22:09:49
im having a tough time right now. been off parnate for over 2 weeks and experiencing extremely severe, suicidal depression. constant thoughts of suicide, and constant obsessions over past regrets and losses (both personal and professional). been on pristiq 100mg for a week, effexor has always kicked in quickly but not feeling anything yet.
nearing the end of my rope. do not know how much more of "this" life I can endure.
question is, at what point does one go to the hospital. am i at that point? or does one need to have actually attempted suicide. if i went to the hospital, what would i expect? i'm already on medication, just waiting for it to kick in.
don't have health insurance, so i figure it would be extremely expensive proposition.
at home with family but afraid when i go back to my place (living alone) i will be so suicidal i would go through with it. emergency ECT an option?
my dr. just says 'patience' and 'take it easy' until pristiq kicks in. but as we all know medicine doesn't change the bad things that depression has caused in one's life (job/relationship losses, etc.).
maybe this post has no purpose, but i have never wanted to give up as much as i do right now. if you're reading this please pray for my recovery.
thanks
uncouth
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