Posted by SLS on January 24, 2009, at 8:37:44
In reply to ready to give up...hospital?, posted by uncouth on January 23, 2009, at 22:09:49
You are very well liked here. :-)
There has to be some reason why.
It was extremely important that you posted what you did when you did. Yes, it seems like you are reaching the point at which hospitalization becomes a rational alternative to seek relief and safety. One can be suicidal and not yet even have a plan. One does not wait for the point where a plan is developed and attempted. You might indeed be a threat to your own safety. I don't know.
If you decide to do what might be the smartest thing you can do in your circumstance, go first to an emergency room for screening. They will tell you if you need to be in a hospital. Speak to a social worker there about your financial limitations. Very often "Charity Care" or some other state run program will fund your hospitalization. You might do well in a partial hospitalization program, which is basically an outpatient support and education program. You would have some place to go every day and avoid the suicidality that often comes with isolation.
Go to screening, at least.
I know this is something you KNOW, but don't FEEL: You are intelligent, affable, responsible, and worthwhile - among other things. You are in no way responsible for your current inability to accomplish your goals or even those you did not achieve in the past. You are doing the best you can with what you have to work with. That is all anyone can ask of you - especially you. Be merciful with yourself and put down the baseball bat. This is no time to be beating yourself up. At least try to tell yourself that your thoughts and feelings are being manufactured in your brain without your consent. They are involuntary.
I hope the Pristiq helps you. I don't have enough of a "feel" for the drug to know what to expect from it.
- Scott
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