Posted by myco on March 11, 2009, at 17:40:01
In reply to MARPLAN - Should I give it another try? Going nuts, posted by Cseagraves on March 11, 2009, at 16:29:53
Hi,
Your symptoms fit nardil perfectly hun...anxiety more than depression. Why did you choose marplan? I share alot of the same symptoms as you and maois (nardil) have changed my life for the better.
myco
> Hi to all.
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> Was interested in some opinions.
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> I know that many of you have seen me go through my ups and downs with meds several times on this board. One of the last I tried was Marplan. This has been awhile ago. Over a month and now have only been on xanax for maintenance.
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> After being on Marplan for four days at just 10mgs in the morning, by the fourth night I felt awful and like I just wanted to die. Not suicidal, but wanting to die.
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> I feel like I have tried everything, but feel so awful now, I don't know what to do anymore. Started 5-htp today and saw a therapist yesterday (starting CBT).
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> I've had so many different diagnosis. It seems a combination of so many things.
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> General Anxiety Disorder
> Social Phobia
> Panic Disorder
> Post Traumatic Stress Disorder
> Depression
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> What I feel like:
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> I am in a constant state of flight or fright and it is wearing me down so bad. I am so tired of feeling like all is hopeless. I have this relentless fear of death and dying. Like all is lost. I have lost interest and motivation in everything. My stomach is in knots all the time and constantly hurts. I seem sensitive to everything (sounds, noises). I don't want to give up. I am only 41 and feel like I am never going to shake this negativity.
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> Have read everything on line on anxiety disorders, panic, phobias and fears, depression, how to overcome hopelessness. Don't know what else to try or what else to do.
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> All of this has seem to come on so quickly. This agoraphobia and intense fear is driving me crazy. I want to live out a nice long life with my husband and kids, but feel like my life will be ending very shortly.
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> Don't want to go to a psych ward. From what I've heard and seen, it wouldn't do me much good and we have no insurance anyway.
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> Can't stop shaking and feeling fearful. CPT therapist told me to write down what I am feeling and thinking before, during and after a anxiety attack. Problem is that I feel anxietal all the time and I have no clue why. Can't shake this feeling of impending doom. Like I know there just has to be something wrong with me physically and I'm going to die since meds don't seem to work.
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> Have gone to family doctor and had every test run. Everything seems fine physically, what the hell is wrong with me.
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> I am so desperate for something to work and help me to be back part of the real world. I just want to live and be happy. I want to watch my children grow up and I want to grow old with my husband. I want to get over this fear of dying, and be able to live my life to the fullest.
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> I want to stop all the brain chatter about things I can't control from my past or my future. Why can't I just live my life day to day and be happy. I have become so focused on death and dying that I have fully stopped living.
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> I used to care about how I looked and now I don't. I use to keep my house clean, now I don't. It's not that I don't care, I just have absolutely no motivation. My husband has had to take up so much of the slack and I feel so guilty. He's a really good man and he deserves so much better than what I have become. I am no longer the person he married. He is trying so hard to be understanding, but I am sure that any one would get tired of this after some time.
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> And if he left me, what would I do. I can't work like this. I would lose everything that is precious, but its like I am on this downward spiral and can't pull out.
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> I know that ssri's dont work. I'm not sure why, but my anxieties seem to override them.
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> I keep reading about the maoi's and wondering if I should give them another try. Maybe because I am so paranoid about everything I put in my mouth,I caused my own anxiety when I took the Marplan.
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> I'm sure that alot of this is because I want a quick fix. I have lost so much already and want myself back. I feel so disconnected to the world right now. Where did I go?
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> I have been meditating, praying, seeing pdoc, researching.
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> It has been absolutely beautiful here the last couple of days and everyday I tell myself to get out and walk around outside, but when I think about it, this overwhelming fear comes over me and I don't know why. I use to walk five miles almost everyday a couple of years ago. What happened?
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> Could an maoi help with this ya think? Anyone got any suggestions. I swear I am falling apart at the seams right now. Don't know what else to do.
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> Please help.
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> Courtney
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