Posted by Dima on April 12, 2009, at 19:00:55
In reply to Re: My life so far...what should I do?, posted by Amelia_in_StPaul on April 12, 2009, at 11:43:10
It seems I've got one problem almost figured out, but I still have the socializing problem. I hate that I usually find no joy in conversation, and consider it more of a chore than a pleasure. I want to have a desire to talk to others. I am not great at holding conversations because I'm thinking both that I do not care enough to talk and that I have nothing to say.
I have never had a girlfriend for over a few weeks because I don't have the interest and they lose interest. I am not just an introvert who doesn't feel the need to talk, and accepts that. I consider myself an extrovert with an engine malfunction. It's not a question of being afraid to say things. If you asked me to, I could walk up to anyone in a store and tell them their pants are nice. But the thought of failing horribly at conversation scares me. The only time I've felt almost completely normal, conversation-wise, was when I took Adderall. I truly had a desire to hear what people had to say, and I wanted them to hear what I said.
I've tried to find others online who have the same concerns, but it's not going great. Does anyone know anything about what I could be experiencing?
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