Posted by Meltingpot on November 23, 2009, at 16:07:36
In reply to Re: Why do I feel suicidal? » Meltingpot, posted by floatingbridge on November 21, 2009, at 23:23:51
Hi FB,
Thanks for the advice. I was seeing a therapist but that finished last year. The NHS only give you a course of therapy and then that's your lot. I'm reluctant to pay out money (privately) for something that didn't really help me long term.
I am off all medication (apart from the Zyprexa), I'm stopping it for three months in the hope that it will work again on restarting it (but I don't hold out a lot of hope). The psychiatrist (who I am seeing privately) is going along with this, well she can't really do much else apart from go along with it. I have been worst since coming off medication so I know that I just have to get through the end of the year and then I can start back on antidepressants (although that is not going to be a bundle of fun either, with all of the start up anxiety I get)
I really want to try everything I can for this depression/anxiety/whatever it is. I want to try a full course of ECT simply because I haven't tried it but all of the psychiatrists I've seen wouldn't recommend it for me. I'm not sure what my options are now. I keep wondering about Deep Brain Stimulation (I'm fixated on that at the moment) but there is no way I'd ever get on a trial for it. Besides, I'd need some encouragement in order to do it. Right now I don't have anyone encouraging me.
That's what I need at the moment, hope and encouragement.
Denise
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