Posted by stargazer2 on June 10, 2010, at 22:12:43
In reply to Re: Anyone on Lithium and Nardil??? » stargazer2, posted by Phillipa on June 4, 2010, at 19:54:41
YOu have no idea how lucky you are to not experience utter despair and suicidal thoughts on a recurrent basis. I would take anxiety over TRD any day, of course I do not live your life so it's easy for me to say that.
I would go right back to work if I got that much joy out of it, it wouldn't even be a question.
I have always longed for something that could be that fulfilling, and the depression has never, ever allowed me to get to a point in any career where I could enjoy anything for more than a few months before the beast came back and took me down...that is sad...so much time lost to this disease...it sucks that science is so limited in finding real cures or good treatments for so many of us. Suicide becomes an option because the treatment is so poor in targeting each condition.
I saw the ineptitude with the treatment of psych patients where I worked and I have had a very jaded opinion of what the true experts really can do for so many of us. I sought out one of the leading experts at Yale for a second opinion and got a very lukewarm attitude and no confidence that this person had any idea how to manage my depression. IT was so bizarre to feel that if that was the best person to help me figure this out, he was not prepared in approaching my disease and giving me any confidence that he could help me. Literally he come across as more depressed than I did and that really surprised me.
Oh well, life goes on, some days...as long as the depression stays contained...Lithium has helped to squelch the severe suicidal thoughts...just increased to 900 along with 45 mg Nardil...say a prayer or me, I can always use good old fashion faith...it can be better than the latest and greatest meds.
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