Posted by Jay_Clockwork_Angels on October 13, 2010, at 13:50:39
In reply to What can I take for FEAR and DEPRESSION, posted by Maxime on October 10, 2010, at 23:27:44
> I can't sleep and I feel very alone and I am scared.Scared of what is, and what may be.I don't want to live my life this way. I was really hoping I would feel better (like MUCH better) from the job, but I don't. I really like the job, but I am still really unhappy and depressed. Am I ever going to feel better? And how do I get rid of this weight?
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> I know I am depressed, but I was hoping that someone, somewhere might be able to help me. And that sense of FEAR that I have when it is so quiet at night. We have a dog and I know she would protect us, but I have always felt that someone or something is lurking in the dark right behind me.
>Maxime,
I feel very deeply for your pain. The way you describe it, it's like the same kind of fear and such I have quite often. It is the worst kind, and it feels like your life is in jeopardy. I have also had a major problem with fear of being alone, of losing my family. It has come to the point where I almost *despise* change, and wish everyday would just be a nice little quiet version of the previous. Nobody gets old or gets sick. I am *very* serious too, not trying to trivialize it.
I wish I had some better answers, especially med wise. I am not sure of what meds you are on. I know that 'talk therapy' is likely the last thing you want to hear about, but possibly along with med changes, having *someone* to talk to, and just hear you out, is helpful. I also am not sure if this is the best suggestion in your case, but in emergencies, I have used occasional high doses of melatonin (even during the day) to stabilize me emotionally. It is a bit of a crude treatment, but one I have used for over 20 years. Just be careful and use it once-in-a-while, because if you constantly use it, melatonin can make you very depressed.
Best wishes...and if you have a chance, could you put out your med list?
Jay
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