Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on November 24, 2010, at 22:23:04
In reply to Re: Will I be commited if bring a gun to a, posted by obsidian on November 24, 2010, at 19:37:13
No no no, I know I can't take stimulants because It's very prone for me to abuse them. Look what ever I wrote, this is what I mean. I need to get reevaulated for my addiction to STIMULANTS and my other issues that I have. I am NOT going to a mental hospital to demand stimualnts ok?
That's the same situation as if you went into a pharmacy and demanded Oxycodone which you would get caught right there on the spot by police
GOD I can't believe people start thinking these bad thoughts about me. What I MENT was that threating to commit suicide at the hospital, which woulndt be such a bad idea but I don't want to die because there is risk that I may to hell and burn with the devil and all of his force. I firmly believe there is a goodside and darkside. I will tell you that I prayed to the devil to get me drugs, and truthfully I think prayer is a bunch of traditional sh*t that everyone does and says "im praying for you" F*CK!! they give no danm concern about you, what they think about you in there head and say "im praying for this person"?? I can't stand prayer because its so full of sh*t. It does nothing, I've prayed to God and the Devil, one I prayed to God to make my life better, and 2nd I prayed to the devil for drugs to help me feel better. Did any of the prayer's come true...no.
Look i've read all over what I wrote. I know I can't be treated with stimulants, now if ever the oppurtunity to be prescibed one once again, I would do but I'm very sure I would take every single one of them and abuse them and end up in bad health.
What I'm saying is I can't be treated with this doctor because she says I can't treat you because you have complication that I don't know how to treat. I need to get another doctor, a more friendlier doctor, no .. not a drug friendly doctor that prescibes narcotics like candy. I have addiction with stimulants, and it really hurts to know I can NEVER take them again. Kinda of like Lucifer...he still wants to be in heaven, but he can't because of the choice he made against God in his rebellion. He has live with his misery. Same here,
The last thing I want to touch on is ... the reason I wanted to carry a gun is to show them at the hosital how much thinking i've been doing about shooting myself, suicidal thoughts. To show them the evidence of the thoughts. I know I won't do it because im too scared I'll go to hell after I die. Ugh, im so discusted with myself but i've always been unsatisfied with who I am. That's why I keep wanting a substance that will cure me. Exept stimualnts unfortuatly.
But thank you both for posting. I'm really going through a suffering period of time. I just am not on the correct meds, not stimulants, but the antidepressant. I mean Prozac works ok, one thing I have noticed is it lost its ability to make me in a better mood [poop out] but it doesnt let me get so far into the pits, I think of nothing but darkness. No I never get that depressed on Prozac, which is good! The Buspar just does not do anything, and i need to go on a new med. I'm usally ask a doctor about certain kinds of meds and they usally don't want to use them. Like Parnate...i asked my doctor if parnate would be good option and she just smiled and "no". So clearly this is why I want to strip myself down off the meds im on and get on a new cocktail.
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