Posted by SLS on April 13, 2011, at 7:49:26
In reply to road mapping AD shortlist, posted by floatingbridge on April 13, 2011, at 7:01:24
Without guarantees of an ethereal infinity in paradise, what better choice do you have but to continue searching in this world for your health and happiness?
- Scott
> Idle speculation. No, research. Avid advice seeking?
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> While down to xanax cr (1.5 mg daily) and norco 15mgs daily), I am realizing I am a royally volatile, angry, bitter, unpleasant person. I can't stand myself (old news, but without the buffer of 15 meds, there's no distraction).
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> My pdoc has thrown in the towel. He hasn't quit. I suspect he's waiting for me to.
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> I am highly ambivalent about committing to any medication. The best talk I ever had in recent years was with a new therapist whom I was able to confide
> that I was incredibly ambivalent about being alive. Since I am, I'm stuck with it. Never had plans to remove myself. But life is painful and frightening every day.
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> Should I bother to try an maoi or serezone? Am I too raw to try anything now? Maybe in a few months off AD's I
> won't be the world's angriest woman, though certainly I could be even more friendless.
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> I am so very bitter. And afriad of dissapearing. Being proven worthless.
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> Asleep tonight at ten, up since 1:30.
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> fb
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.
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