Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 23, 2011, at 18:40:21
Hello again. I've really been thinking about how Im going to move out and get back on stimulants. That's all I need. I don't need benzos. I can handle amphetamine anxiety and who knows maybe it won't give me anxiety. But the point of my message is im very scared to stand up to my parents and tell them what Im going to do. I don't even want to tell them what i'm going to do because they may try to take the car away from me. They don't want me on any addiction potential medication substance and will use all nessary means to stop me. I hate this, really. That means im going to have to lie and say im doing fine when im really not. This is the thing. I am looking for a doctor that will help me with ADHD management and im looking for someone here to give me advice. I already know the advice that I'M an addict and I don't need to hear it anymore. The thing I can't manage to stay in one place stable with out a stimulant. I take caffiene medication related stuff over the counter and I swear it sucks. Nothing but anxiety. I don't need benzo's I can take Tenex or Clonodine for anxiety.
Can someone just understand what my motives are?? I need someone on these boards to just willing to help me but I'm afraid if you read this and think its my addiction manifesting itself again and get the same talk that I have before. Don't get me wrong, all of what this board has provided to give advice for the welfare of my health is appriciated but I have to act on this issue. I need a place to live. There's nothing bad going on here, i just want to move out on my own and take on responsiblies. I wish there was someone that could just pay for my ticket to what ever city and I could fly there and stay with them. Of course my parents will go nuts and not knowing where I am. Im so sick of being dependent not only on substances but I'm dependent on people to help me. And that is not very....healthy. I think its Co-depedency. But im looking for someone who will help me on my way to move out and further my abilities.
Its ok if your don't want to. Just please write a message on what to do. Give me intructions.
sincerly,
Matt
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:994681
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