Posted by floatingbridge on August 31, 2011, at 9:09:15
In reply to Re: Would you rather be 'real' sick?, posted by sleepygirl2 on August 31, 2011, at 7:36:18
> I have a huge amount of regret about sharing my suicidal thoughts. Hospitals are not an option for me.
That seems like such a shame, too. A real waste of what MH service is supposed to or at least could provide. An opportunity to have a real and deep therapeutic exchange.
I've learned all the code words now, just how to phrase things to convey distress without setting that damn machine in motion and losing my rights.
Then, one of the very best talks I had was with a therapist whom I was able to say, look, I am deeply ambivalent about being alive. It was almost like she rolled up here sleeves; she really perked up, and we had one of the best discussions
ever.This past bezerko summer when I found myself at the ER, my husband tried to drag me out. Don't worry, I said. I'm not an idiot. I know exactly what to say. I am not interested in getting locked up.
It's a mad world, our culture. It turned out that unless I admitted to being suicidal, there was no help for me. Period. Goodbye. Seizures, withdrawals, please do that at home. Unless of course you say those magic words. Then the great locked doors will swing open and swallow you entire. And therapy? We don't have time for that. We're busy keeping nuts like you safe.
I dig a pony.
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