Posted by hyperfocus on August 31, 2011, at 20:29:57
In reply to Re: Would you rather be 'real' sick?, posted by Lepus on August 29, 2011, at 21:24:07
I honestly don't know. Grass is always greener...many times during the day I feel like I cannot stand this emotional pain another minute. When it's very bad I'm about 90% disabled. I'm a prisoner in my own mind - I can't even go outside. This feeling of not being whole or fully here or not in control of my thoughts is terribly distressing.
The majority of people I have to tell about my suffering, including employers, colleagues, nurses and medical admin workers, think people like me are frauds, maligners, soft, weak, lazy, etc...More than one doctor has washed their hands of me - silently deciding that I am beyond treatment.
But I never had to deal with any chronic pain or disability. Maybe if I was there I'd wish I was here. I really don't know.
But the little I have I'm very grateful for. Because there are so many people - billions and billions - who have so much less.
C-PTSD: social phobia, major depression, dissociation.
Currently: 300mg amitriptyline single dose at night.
Also: Allegra, 1000mg Vitamin C.
Improving.
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