Posted by poser938 on February 21, 2012, at 19:28:54
In reply to Re: i just feel like i'm running low on hope » poser938, posted by Phillipa on February 21, 2012, at 19:06:42
the only place ive ever stayed at was just a crisis stabilization place. it was no help. i didnt feel better while i was there. i dont think staying longterm anywhere would be any better. like i said before, my brain doesnt just go back to normal after stopping a med, so im scared as hell to try anything. doctors dont or arent willing to unnderstand this. neither is my dad.
i know what my brain loves, and that is a dopamine system that is working correctly, and that is what the problem. i used to have a brain that worked much more correctly than it does now until i started meds. i was reading a book that was besically putting my problem into perspective. well, with what mirapex did anyway... the example it used was with SSRI's, but it can be related to just about any other psychiatric med. when you put too much stimulation on the presynaptic receptors for too long, the system just shuts down. and this is similar to the effect of a labotomy. and because of this, i cant feel the effects of antipsychotics at all. i dont think there are any meds aimed at fixing something like this. i cant take ritalin or adderall or selegiline or tianeptine because they all lead to the same problem.
and now, with ketamine.. i dont really understand much about how it is thought to work, but what really interests me is what i read on ketamine.com where it says "Ketamine, researchers increasingly believe, may be a "reset button" for brains stuck in dysfunctional ruts." and this is far different than normal antidepressants where they make an artificial change to your brain. and ive read for most people, they need a new dose once a week to keep depression away, but with me, it wasnt my genes making me like this. im positive that if it were to correct the problem in my brain, my brain wouldnt go back to its depressed ways.
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