Posted by orochi on December 7, 2014, at 11:30:07
I'm pretty discouraged right now.
I simply feel like there is no drug which can help me. I have been melancholic,anxious,depressed since childhood. I know nothing else. I don't know how it is to not be depressed or to worry about losing something precious or losing people or feeling guilty for something.
Because of this I don't even know if it's even possible that you go on an antidepressant and then suddenly these depressing thoughts are gone. I cannot really imagine this.
But if antidepressants cannot make you become a different person, in my case being unnaturally happy, then what can they do?
Can they reduce the overall symptoms to a degree but you'll still feel the same feelings you always felt before?
I know that I'm not a happy,optimistic person. I also have many real issues which cause me to be depressed and not happy. I ask myself how should it be like if I found a drug which actually works? Should I then feel unnaturally happy and at the same time know that this feeling isn't natural? Or should I be emotionally numb and not feel anything compared to being depressed?
I simply can't imagine myself not being the way I am.
What if antidepressants simply cannot help someone like me? My doc once said that an antidepressant is not a "happy pill" but I needed something like a happy pill. :(So far I tried without success:
Lexapro,Wellbutrin,Ritalin,Agomelatine,Tianeptine,RemeronCurrently I'm on 75mg Anafranil and I cannot say that it makes me feel any better.
poster:orochi
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