Posted by andie1970 on January 7, 2004, at 12:09:53
I am feeling lower than low. I didn't know where to go, but since I posted here before, I thought I would come here. I recently lost my uncle who i was close to, and my mother is currently sick, and then i learned my father is using nitro patches. my anxiety is so overwheleming, i just can't take it anymore. i am in school, but have no interest anymore. i used to always be able to numb myself with television, but last night, i couldn't even watch one show and i knew that was bad. i couldn't read, or numb out in any way. i couldn't find a way out of the despair. i am lost, and it feels so damn dark in here. i feel weak, and feel like doing nothing. i am reaching out here because i am scared about how bad i feel. i don't want to talk to anyone, call anyone. i have a counselor, but she's less than comforting. i can't tell my family, they have enough stress. i am just here, because i don't know where to go.
poster:andie1970
thread:297646
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/alter/20031218/msgs/297646.html