Posted by redscarlet on November 28, 2004, at 23:48:52
I have an eating disorder, I have dealt with anorexia for many, many years.
I all most died from it in fact, that was in 1981.
I have been obsessed about my weight all my late teen to adult life.
I have been doing some binge eating for the last three weeks and I don't know why.
I have a lot of stress in my life right now so I guess it's coming from that, however that is usually when I STOP eating !
This binge eating has me so stressed out. I've never done this before and I want it to stop and stop NOW.
I'm really feeling out of control.
Everyday is a battle with food and my thoughts about food.
If it wasn't bad enough I got worse after I had gained a lot of weight due to meds I was put on for my bipolar and OCD.
That was over four years ago and I lost all the weight once my meds were changed. However now I have this great fear of being fat again.
Well it sure is nice to have a place to post this, it just feels better to be able to talk about it.
No one knows about this in my life except my Mother but she thinks I recovered after my near death back in 1981.
The wired thing is I want to be well and healthy but I also want to keep control if that makes any sense ?!?!
So I just wanted to share my story, maybe you can share yours... :-)
poster:redscarlet
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