Posted by trucker on December 10, 2004, at 11:46:46
In reply to Re: weight story--a confession--may trigger » inthegloaming, posted by saw on December 1, 2004, at 1:00:36
hey saw!! "LITTLE ONE" i am in a size 28W.. i use to be in a size 9.. then i got pregnant and my son was born dead.. i gained 135 LBS in about 6 months flat.. my life fell to complete destruction. this has continued for 5 years. 2 1/2 i don't remember .. just the grief. i haven't the heart to try to loose at this point. too much stress and discord to have the strength. i tried to fill that EMPTY SPOT, to subdo the pain, of the EMPTY ARMS, and the pain in my heart. (no one should have to barry their future).any way i can't seem to try to loose at this point to many things are about to change. like house, life, area where i live. i may move to another state. and everything is in limbo.. only thing i can say is take time for yourself. make time for yourself. and i hope you have more support than i have had in the past and have now. i went thru the whole loss of son and the after math ALONE.. no one helped me. 2 years later i could no longer funtion and i began the zoloft. no one came to visit me etc.. my mother told me i killed my son.. and a bunch of other hurtful things and she lied to the rest of my siblings and so they didn't even want to talk to me until i forgave mother.. well i wasn't woman enough to do that then.. it took a couple years. i live in my husband state, not my home state.
trucker
/////////////////////////////////////////////// > I am very moved by your post. I feel EXACTLY like this. I have gained so much weight from medication coupled with binge eating one week and starvation the next. My self image and self love are totally destroyed.
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> I exercise and eat a healthy balanced diet. Hell, I even force 10 to 15 glasses of water down every day. Yet I get bigger and more wobbly by the day.
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> One thing that stood out in your post was "waistbands". They have become a demon to me. I can still squeeze into a size 10, but today I am wearing a maternity dress.
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> I really understand and sympathize with you. What we are feeling is so soul destroying.
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> I am glad that you were able to talk about it.
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> Sabrina
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