Posted by Maxime on January 1, 2005, at 19:57:44
In reply to Re: Text book anorexia, posted by Cairo on January 1, 2005, at 10:29:27
Hi Cairo -
I have an amazing psychiatrist for the most part. Yes, he manages my meds but he also does some therapy with me. He has hyponotised twice when I was I going through an awful time at work.I've been honest with him about my intake but he doesn't focus on it at all. I don't look like I am restricting. My metabolism is messed up and I have a thyroid problem so my body doesn't reflect my low calorie intake. I don't think he will do anything until I look underweight. But I've struggled with disease long enough to know to that I am damaging my body. I might be the fattest anoretic, but my daily intake is never more than 400 calories.
Part of me doesn't want help because I can get away with my behaviour and no one cares. I lie about what I have eaten etc. and people figure I am telling the truth because I don't look like I did in 2001. Yet nothing has really changed except one messed up metabolism and thyroid. I take thyroid medication but the weight I gain doesn't seem to want to leave my body. I feel like such a fat cow.
I want to self-destruct. I don't feel like I deserve anything good in life. I don't know why I feel this way but I do.
I don't know why I am posting here. I am not looking for recovery. I think it is because I want to help others if I can. I like helping others.
Maxime
> Can you psychiatrist help more or is he/she just the "hellohowareyouheresyourprescription" kind? I've never understood how you can prescribe meds but not treat the PERSON, especially in psychiatry.
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> Have you checked out websites for AD? Perhaps you can call and have your name bumped up on the list for therapists? Are you eligible for any other financial assistance that could help defer costs? Talk to a social worker at the nearby hospital and see if they have any ideas about resources.
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> Happy New Year, Maxime! Try to find some something that you love to do today and enjoy it and try to remember the feeling when you're down. You are WORTH it!
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