Posted by 10derHeart on September 12, 2005, at 12:24:02
In reply to I don't know if anything I can say might help..., posted by Racer on September 10, 2005, at 1:03:12
Thank you so much, Racer.
For taking the time to write all that. I so love reading your posts. They make me think, and you aren't afraid to "wonder aloud" about all sorts of things, and to ask hard questions.
I'm going to keep your post for future reference.
But right this minute, today, this week, whatever - I just can't go there. This issue is so huge, has been so thoroughly avoided by me over at least 2 years of therapy, that I just have to be careful.
My current T. is gently poking around it, as I've thrown out jokes and rude comments (about myself) to him, giving him an obvious opening...but I still can't quite go there.
Although....soon, I think I will. It scares the cr*p out of me. I might have to *consider* letting go of something that's been part of my life for years. It's hard to explain, but this topic seems worse than anything I've shared in therapy so far. And we've addressed some deep stuff that had me crying for nearly 45 minutes straight. More than once.
But food? Eating? Overeating? Oh, no, no.
Can't go there.
Which is why I have to.
But - not - quite - yet :-(Racer, I sincerely do appreciate what you wrote.
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