Posted by Sonya on October 2, 2005, at 10:15:46
In reply to Re: I don't get it, posted by Racer on October 1, 2005, at 15:22:26
Thanks for the response, Racer.
I have no patience. When I need to lose weight, I need to lose it fast. If I try staying on 1,200 cal/day, I won't be able to stick to the diet and will sabotage myself.
Is it really possible I have an ED even though I'm not getting really thin? I was overweight for my age and height before. I'm 5'7", age 51. I went from 157 to 142 in 4 weeks. My goal (ideal weight) is 137. Even if I semi-starve myself to get there, I then plan on maintaining it by being diligent. I won't continue to try to lose weight. This seems practical to me. I'm just afraid now that I won't lose more because my metabolism is too slow, so I'm trying to exercise more. (Thankfully did lose another lb since yesterday morning.)
I do have a T but we haven't talked about the weight issue. But I've told my pdoc and he said the loss was due to depression.
There's a two-fold reason for me doing this. I want to be thinner so I look better and have more energy, and I want to feel in control of something (I know this one is the issue I need to work on).
I can completely understand how this kind of thing could get out of hand but I feel I'm in control. Must say though my hubby is getting upset that I hardly eat and can't stand socializing with friends because it usually revolves around food. Yet he compliments me on how I look (he didn't compliment me on my figure when I was overweight).
The thought of 1,200 cal/per day is way too scary right now and I just can't do it.
> If you eat fewer than 1200 calories per day, your metabolism will slow waaaaaayyyy down. The only way to lose more at that point is to go into a state of semi-starvation, which puts you at risk of organ failure, among other things. Basically, even at this point, you're experiencing an eating disorder. You're probably also dealing with a distorted body image.
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> I know how seductive EDs can be, but it's well worth working on it NOW, rather than waiting for it to get worse. Do you have a T? Can you bring this up? If so, do. If you don't have a T, this might be a good time to get one. Support groups like those run by ANAD are another good resource for you.
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> Now for my question: in ED groups, one of the little 'mantras' is "use your voice!" It means that a lot of us are trying to communicate something through our bodies. Can you feel what you're trying to communicate through your restricted eating and self-starvation? Can you identify what being so thin means to you?
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> Just questions. I don't necessarily know all my answers to those questions, but it's worth asking them all the same...
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