Posted by Jost on August 28, 2006, at 0:20:48
In reply to Jost's nightmares » Jost, posted by llrrrpp on August 27, 2006, at 22:11:12
Oh, Ll. Dont take me so seriously.
I wasn't really grrrrr-ing. And what's wrong with my shirt? So it's got a big coffee stain on the middle of the front, just below a button. I can't help it if coffee dribbles.
The day that I rule by fear will be the millenium (the next one). Or the apocalypse.
I''ll make a note, though:
"LL does not take kindly to unkindly Profs., or jokes thereupon. Also, Ll is very sensitive on this subject, since being in graduate school can put a damper on one's sense of humor re: unkindly Profs. Do not joke or otherwise take subject lightly. "
So noted.
As for what I would do in the hallway, if I saw my erstwhile co-worker-- from whom, by the way, I have not heard-- the likelihood of my acting in any way threateningly, or frighteningly, is about zero.
And remember, I'm not a Prof. --- Although: Coulda,woulda,shoulda.
But also, understand that my work is my life-- not because it's "work," but because it's when I feel alive. I really don't want to get into it, esp. when you're a bit out of sorts w/me, but we all live differently and for different reasons.
Incidentally, I respect people that I respect--for reasons having little (or nothing) to do with whether they command fear, love, liking, comradery, or opposition. I may feel more comfortable with some than others-- absolutely-- but respect isn't comfort or even benefit.
Probably after a while, I could resent or avoid people who scare me too much, but I would still respect them if they had other qualities that I respected or admired, which they might.
My T is away for another two weeks, and offline, or off the grid. Plus we don't do well on the phone. We;ve talked a lot at times about my complicated feelings about the people I work with, and myself in relation to them. And I'm sure we'll talk more.Sorry you are unhappy with certain professors--or me--though. Grad school can be a b*tch. So can I, undoubtedly.
Sleep tight tonight. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Jost
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