Posted by llrrrpp on August 31, 2006, at 7:40:01
In reply to Re: Plans for Tuesday, posted by llrrrpp on August 29, 2006, at 13:00:52
My goals today:
1. Feel good about my work via collecting some data2. Feel good about my health via shopping at farmer's market and doing some exercises. Already did 2 sets of arm exercises. Alarmed at my weakness, but at least I did something about it.
3. Feel good about something else. Anything.
4. Wonder where 4 nights of insomnia and cumulative sleep deprivation came from.
5. Resurrect the to-do list in the polka-dot notebook. It's been neglected for a whole 18 hours.
6. A genuine smile. To savor. and remember.
Heavy heart today. very tired. cannot sleep more than 5 hours for the 4th night in a row. woke up with the same headache. had some bad dreams. self-criticism started talking to me sometime this week, and I think my session with T made it crescendo to a roar. I am getting weak from resisting it, monitoring and trying to counter my own unproductive and malicious cognitive illusions. It's hard work, and I think my prefrontal cortex is not quite prepared for this battle on all fronts.
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