Posted by Estella on August 28, 2006, at 8:53:41
In reply to Depersonalisation etc, posted by Declan on August 28, 2006, at 0:00:04
> With social phobia (ot PTSD or schizoaffective disorder or whatever we've been told to call it now)I've always been fascinated to know what it is that is feared. Being cast out of the group and left to die, perhaps?
Hmm. I guess it is probably different for different people but that fairly much sums it up for me. Though not just being left to die, more that I'll be left alone forever. And I won't be able to die. I'll have to live. Alone. Forever. Though death is not an event in life because death is not lived through w. So yeah, being left to die, maybe that is it.
I used to get this recurrent dream when I was a kid. I was naked. I was tied to a chair. People would walk past. Some of them would look at me with disaproval on their faces. Sometimes they would look at each other and snigger about me as they walked past. Some would stop and stare. I could see the disgust and repulsion on their faces. Some would laugh. Some... Didn't even notice me they just kept on walking by. Summs up how I feel around people really... When I'm not feeling so good at any rate.
I'm wearing shame on my skin when I wake up.
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