Posted by ClearSkies on January 8, 2008, at 11:46:51
Or when I email people, I feel like I'm spraying a whole bunch of repellent all over me. thread killer. Dead-end email. The biggest disappointment was when I "launched" the online store. More like dropped a pebble into a great big ocean. My sister-in-law thought my email account was sending her spam. I'm pretty sure I signed the email, "love, me". Does a spam email do that, really?
Not really feeling rejected or repelled, or even invisible. But kind of like I've been pushing a great weight up a long, slow hill for many months now. It's a solitary journey. So is posting, sometimes. And email, well, people have other stuff on their minds. or they think you're sending them spam. I guess my passion doesn't really come across? Or it's a disappointment to me that my excitement isn't shared by everyone else in my address book.
It has to be enough, without the feedback. I have to be ok with clapping in my own forest without anyone else there to hear it with me (how's that for torturing a metaphor? nasty, isn't it?). To have a sense of satisfaction of a Job Well Done. Patting myself on the back, because, well, that's who's going to do the patting, and nobody else. What a magnificent job I did getting that store put together! And have you seen my new (and improved) blog? It's quite lovely. If I say so myself - and I do.
Oh, and in case the subject of the post wasn't a clue, there isn't any need to respond to this.
Really.
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