Posted by ClearSkies on April 7, 2008, at 13:12:37
Doesn't leave much room for esteem. I was able to articulate what I've been feeling lately, though, as Hatred, and it frightened me to name it so. Such a strong feeling, such a strong word, directed at my own self. Am I really worthy of this feeling?
Try to break it down - what is it about myself that is so deserving of this wrath? My physical self, my personal qualities. It's a description that I wouldn't think of directing towards another person, yet I didn't hesitate to name myself. No wonder that anyone's attempts to give me a compliment falls so very flat, given what it's up against. Hatred. And how do you combat this enemy, when it's the face in the mirror that you're hurling the abuse at?
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