Posted by ClearSkies on April 7, 2008, at 21:21:02
In reply to Face to face with self hatred, posted by ClearSkies on April 7, 2008, at 13:12:37
Gah, that post is pretty naked looking. The awful truth, laid bare. That one can hate oneself - it's the venomous snake that resides inside of me, that gets camouflaged as "my feet are ugly" or "I'm having a bad hair day" or "my thighs are too fat" - all prettifications of what lies beneath - that I really, truly do hate myself.
It was just a glimpse, a shocking one. It was very real, and I don't doubt for a moment that it was real and true, what I felt. A true loss of innocence, to see that horrible part of myself for what it is. I liked it better when I only disdained bits of my body; the feet, the thighs, the hair, the uneven coloration of my skin. I wonder now if it will recede back to that, but those quaint beliefs now certainly ring even more hollowly than ever before.
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