Posted by NThompson on June 27, 2003, at 12:41:34
In reply to Re: For Dinah » NThompson, posted by Dinah on June 26, 2003, at 2:12:50
Hi there you guys,
As far as unrequested advice, I think that's a little bit wrong. I don't think anyone would be here if they didn't want advice, especially from people who DO understand you. So, thank you.
Bad days..ummm... I hate those little things. The problem is that I don't know if it is depression or straight out old fashion guilt! I guess both, getting depressed from the guilt. I feel as those I really let my husband down. Of course in the financial department but also in the partners for life, for better or worst...thing. I wasn't communicating with him. I was shuting him out and giving up. I didn't honor the "for better or worst" by trying to commit suicide. Then he jumps in like superman and in one big swoop, takes care of everything before I even get home from the hospital and crisis center! It's like he snapped his fingers and everything I have been worried and scared about for the past few years, especially the last 7 months) he got rid of in 10 minutes!!!!!! Not only did he honor the for better or worst but he honored the for richer and for poorer! And all he did was reach out to family and they fixed everything. 10 minutes, one phone call. Something I couldn't do. I almost gave my life up for absolutely nothing! NOTHING! What does that say about the person I am???? Weak, very. So I feel guilty about not keeping my promises and vows to him. Now, I have never been unfaithful to him. And vise versa. I just wish I would have been able to a least talk to him. I don't know why I thought I couldn't. He's NEVER been abusive in any way. And as you can see by the way he stayed with me that he really does love me. So I don't know what my problem is/was.
Anyway, I feel like I can say anything here and that you all are wonderful friends that I have known for years. Isn't that funny. I don't know if it is the whole, we aren't in person or just the fact that we are all in some way on the same ship. But I like being able to talk to you all and get straight, truthful answers and ADVICE.
I am feeling better today though. I am even smiling and laughing. Thank you for being here for me. Thank you for being you.
Take care of you,
NThompson
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