Posted by DaisyM on March 8, 2004, at 22:26:59
I (finally) had a really great session with my Therapist today. It isn't that he isn't always great, it is just that the subjects have all been so difficult and dark, that we *can't* joke about them.
Today was different because while we talk about some really meaningful stuff, it was so much lighter and better. We talked about seeing therapy as *just* support for awhile and not work. I told him that was very hard for me. I needed to feel like I was working on something because getting support felt selfish and way too "all about me." He laughed and said fine, If I insisted, he would give me tons of homework and ask really hard questions all the time and be a tough task master. I said at least I'd know how to get an A then!
At one point, he told me trying to get me to not do everything for everyone was like "trying to turn around the Titanic" (-- umm, did you just call me the Titanic? You know that boat SANK right?) We both laughed.
And, near the end, we talked about last week, when I was quitting therapy and we talked about how much better I felt after we talked on the phone Friday. He said he thought that the little girl in me was reassured that he hadn't given away my slots and that she was going to get to continue therapy. I told him I had her shut down for now, to please NOT to bring her out right now and he gently reminded me that she was always with me and that was OK. He was sweet and funny and I felt very safe and taken care of. Hmmm...maybe I'm getting the hang of this using therapy for support stuff.
So the hard part? ...tonight I miss him. Not in a transferencial kind of way...just in that "today was good" kind of way.
Know what I mean? Think it will last?
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