Posted by terrics on March 11, 2004, at 15:25:26
In reply to terrics -- may I ask some ?? about SI?, posted by Racer on March 10, 2004, at 20:29:11
Hi Racer. Glad you had your eye checked.
Well about my problem. This is hard to answer. First I'll say that I don't think it matters whether I talk to T. about cutting or not. I know she does not like to talk about it for fear that it may be attention seeking and by discussing it I would be getting attention for it. We don't talk about it and I still do it. It is a strange thing and not learned cause I did it when I was 9 and had no idea about it and never heard of it. [My father had died the year before and my mother lost it] The next time I did it because a therapist told me I wasn't allowd and I was not cutting then. I was really angry. I was 50 which I think is old for cutting. Then I stopped for 3 yrs. Then I had a 'breakdown' and started again. This time however it became an addiction. Whenever I am angry or hurt I am relieved by cutting. No one knows about it except T. and babblers. When I am very hurt it distracts from the emotional pain. I do not want to say more because it really could be a trigger, but there is more to it. I hope I answered some of your questions. It is not something I would recommend. It is hard to hide it from my husband. And the addiction piece is quiet strong for me. terrics
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