Posted by tinydancer on May 14, 2004, at 8:13:31
Okay, well, did everyone enjoy my happy day yesterday? I did. But we all know days like that don't last, do they? Sorry, I am in a very cynical mood at the moment.
Basically I'm totally frustrated because I have tried to reach my T, at his outpatient office, and there is only an answering machine and its been 40 minutes with no answer. I think that means he has left for the day and I feel like I'm going to....something. I know I won't die and I'm going to manage but I hate myself for letting myself make him such a big and important person in my life. Someone that I depend on even though I know he just can't always be there when I want him to be. It is just damn hard.
I am not a telephone chatter anyway, but some few times I have wanted to contact him but can't-he is very hard to get a hold of and in this country the system works a bit differently (no secretaries) so I have to somehow catch him in between appointments and that's impossible. On Fridays he does his private practice and that is where I called, but no answer, and I just left a message which he hasn't replied to. I don't see him until next WEDNESDAY.
Oh, it is so hard, so hard, so hard, so hard...I'm going to go crawl in bed and try to hug my kitty until this pain goes away.....
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